They arrived a week or so ago. They’re really quite beautiful. I moved them across to the bike, and have done just a little riding on them so far. Besides being beautiful, I LOVE the way they feel and handle.
Jude Kirstein built the wheels for me. I’m sure I was a difficult customer for her, as I really couldn’t give her very good direction on the aesthetics of the wheels, and she really wanted that direction from me. I needed her guidance and “vision” about what the wheels could become aesthetically, and she needed me to approve and be OK with things before she’d build them.
I get that about the position that Jude was in – I really do. She runs a small business, and she couldn’t afford to build a set of wheels that I’d reject. We went around a bit, and I was clearly extremely conservative – feeling comfortable with black. While she suggested some other colors that we could do for the hubs, I was clearly resisting out of my lack of vision. Then, at the last minute, I asked my daughter for advice, and she recommended blue hubs and nips. Jude was going to do just plain black since this was clearly my comfort zone, but Anna pushed me out of that comfort zone just a bit.
I’m really glad we went with blue. The wheels are truly beautiful, and very classy. I’ll update my “review” of the wheels after a few thousand miles, but for now, I love the look of them and the feel of them, and I think Jude did a great job.
But the important stuff is the dynamics of how things came together. Since I lacked the vision to see what might be in the wheels, and Jude was leary of creating something I might not like, I almost ended up with really boring wheels. Thanks to Anna, we punched out of that really boring place to end up with beautiful wheels.
But, is there an even better set of wheels that live somewhere in Jude’s imagination, that could be on my bike right now?
How often do we allow our fear of disappointing someone else keep us from allowing the truly spectacular to emerge from our imagination? Creativity involves risk, and creativity that allows the spectacular to emerge requires truly great courage.
Creativity comes from the soul, courage comes from the heart, and fear comes from the mind. We need to find ways to quiet the mind more often, and allow the heart to clear the path for the soul.
I love the new wheels, with zero reservation. I’ll write more as I spend more time on them. But to young folks like Jude, listen to your soul, and let your heart fight for the truly spectacular that wants to emerge.
The recent Pew study that found Atheists and Agnostics had greater knowledge of traditional religion (such as Christianity) than did Christians seems to surprise quite a few people.
See the study results here, but the summary is that folks were asked a series of 32 questions about religion. Nearly half of the questions were specifically about Judea-Christian knowledge of the Bible and Judea-Christian religion. The other half of the questions were a mix of questions about religion in the larger world, religion and the constitution, etc.
Folks who identified themselves as Christian did not do well on this survey. In fact, the folks who were the most knowledgable about religion were folks who identified themselves as either Agnostic or Atheist. It should be noted that those who identified themselves as Jewish were not far behind the Agnostics and the Atheists. Mormons scored well too. (I should note that it appears that Mormons are lumped in with Christians, so the Christian scores without the Mormon help would have been dismal…)
One other thing that jumped out at me: Those who said that they took Scripture literally – that they thought that the Bible represented the actual words of G-d – those folks scored significantly lower in actual knowledge, while those who did not believe the Bible should be taken literally scored significantly higher in actual knowledge.
Surprised? The results make sense to me. Folks who’ve gone to the trouble of thinking through religion, and have consciously decided to call identify as Agnostic or Atheist have probably asked tougher questions, and have probably gone through more analysis and study to arrive at their conscious decision. My guess is that if you were able to pull out the folks who called themselves Christian AND who’ve arrived at that identification through the same analysis and study would probably do as well as the Agnostics and the Atheists – they’d probably do even better.
On the other hand, if you accept Religion as something that just is, and you don’t ask questions about it, you probably don’t know much about it. In fact, you probably don’t see it as a problem that you don’t know much about it. You’ve decided to drink the kool-aid without questioning what’s in it.
The results point toward the need to dig in and ask tough questions of religion. Be willing to push against the places where there aren’t good answers. Accept uncertainty regarding where your questions may take you, and be willing to embrace the mystery of the places you might end up.
I don’t buy that asking the questions will lead a person automatically to a lack of faith. In fact, I strongly believe that it’s the job of religion to encourage folks to ask the tough questions, and to help them to journey toward relationship with G-d. Because at the end of the journey most people will, in fact, find G-d. Sure there will be many who don’t find G-d, but I many people will.
Whether the person who took the journey ended up finding G-d or not finding G-d, it’s the journey itself that’s important. Agnostics and Atheists appear to be more open to taking the journey, although many might argue that they’ve predetermined that they’ll not find G-d on the journey. Sure there are some of those, just like there are some Christians who predetermine that they will find G-d.
I say, give it a whirl – step out onto the dance floor – take the journey!
I’ve got a friend who lost the end of his finger a while back. They found it, and thanks to the wonders of modern medicine were able to reattach the tip to the finger – minus just a touch more than the width of a saw blade…
Talking with him a couple weeks ago, he was describing how frustrating it was growing accustomed to the new finger, now that it was healed and becoming “usableâ€. Seems that the nerve connections didn’t come back together well, so that fingertip has very little sensation. My friend says that he never realized just how much he depended on sensitive fingertips to get the most mundane tasks done in the day, not to mention the more demanding tasks. To add insult to injury, he’s noticed that it’s not only the inability to sense touch to do fine work that’s a problem, but also the inability to feel pain. He was doing some work in the driveway the other day, and when he got into the house, he noticed that he had banged the end of his finger up badly, and wasn’t even aware that he’d done it.
Seems funny, doesn’t it, that we miss the ability to feel pain? Our fingertips need sensitive touch in order to operate as effective tools, and they need a highly developed sense of pain in order to keep them safe – safety does not equal lack of pain.
I suppose if I didn’t want to use my hands as effectively as possible – just keep them in my pockets all the time – these things wouldn’t be so important. Wouldn’t really matter if they were able to work as highly developed tools, and wouldn’t really matter if they felt pain – I’d just keep ‘em safe by keeping ‘em out of harm’s way all the time. But then, I would have chosen to cripple myself by taking my hands out of play.
Listening to him, it struck me that the exact same principles and notions that apply to our ability to develop and leverage our physical assets, (like our amazing hands and fingers), apply to our ability to develop and leverage our social and emotional assets as well.
Negotiating the emotional perils of treachery, betrayal, and the other bumps and bruises that are part of the human social landscape, we’re sure to feel a good deal of pain now and then. But it’s all just part of developing that important social sensitivity that allows us to interact closely with those around us. We could keep our social and emotional hands in our pockets, so to speak, and avoid any risk of pain, though doing so would keep us from developing tender sensitivity that brings us together with others in this life – it would cripple us socially.
Last evening I got home from a fishing trip, and my Brittany Spaniel was delighted to see me. She laid down next to me, and was in heaven as I softly caressed the back of her head and all around her ears, occasionally letting my fingers lightly work their way through the soft curls on top of her shoulders. I thought of my friend, and was thankful to have the sensitive fingertips that allowed me to create the wonderful interface between myself and my dog. Her half-closed eyes made me think she was thankful too…
To some extent, we get to choose how much we’re willing to feel in life, but we don’t get to choose to feel only the stuff that “feels goodâ€. Greater sensitivity allows us to build stronger and more effective tools for sure, but we’ve got to be willing to slog through the painful stuff in the process. The painful stuff reminds us of the strength of the tools we’re building, and as my friend discovered, the pain is often an pretty darned effective way of preventing us from doing real harm to ourselves…
Where in my life, I wonder, have I chosen to keep my social and emotional hands in my pockets – keeping ‘em safe – and subsequently missing wonderful opportunities to feel wonder and peace? I’m sure there are places where I’ve avoided pain by avoiding risk, but at what cost? How many soft floppy ears have gone unscratched?
On the first day of our ride, Dave’s morning began with a flat tire before he even got on the bike. Here on the final day, he’s greeted again by a flat tire as we roll the bikes out of the hotel room before dawn. Like a pair of bookends, a flat to begin the ride, a flat to end it. This one, however, we’re changing under the lights outside the hotel door, on a humid morning, with hungry mosquitoes all around us. Needless to say, we’re as quick as we can be getting the flat fixed, into the saddle and headed down the road.
One of the things about today that’s even nicer than most days of our ride is that Carol is schlepping our stuff to our destination. She’s going to tour Lindsborg in the morning, then meet us in Hoisington around noon, which is when we figure we’ll get there. Not that we have a lot of stuff to schlep, but it’s nice to lose the 20# sitting on the back of the bike.
Sunrise on the plains
The ability of the human mind and body to adapt to and “meld with†a tool is more than just interesting to me – it exhilarates me when I experience it. On this ride, the degree to which my mind and body are connected to my bike has become increasingly evident, and I notice it again this morning as we take off. The loss of the trunk on the back of my bike makes the bike feel fast and responsive beneath me. I’ve become adjusted to the heavier bike, and the way it responds, but now getting the bike back closer to the balance that it has when not touring makes me smile, and touches that place in my mind that loves to meld with tools.
I grew up in a time when all the boys played baseball. I played baseball a lot, and loved it. Earlier in the summer, I met my brother to fish for a few days, and we both brought baseball gloves. We stood out in the street and threw that ball back and forth for 15 minutes or so. There was something absolutely magical about what was happening during those 15 minutes.
Before we threw the ball the first time, I started to feel that magic as I slipped my hand into my old mitt. Even though it had essentially been 40 years since I’d put that glove on, I could feel the leather welcome my hand like a dear old friend welcomes a best friend after a long absence. The familiar smell of the worn leather, the look of it, the weight of it on my hand, everything about the glove on my hand brought my mind into a zone of familiar harmony that can only happen when you experience that integration of body, tool, and mind that is so uniquely human.
Picking up the baseball, feeling the perfect size of it beneath my fingers, feeling the stitches fit perfectly beneath my fingertips as I handled the ball. All these sensations heightened my already keen sense of harmony. I threw the ball, and that familiar arc and release of the arm brought a warm smile to my heart – I suspect my face was smiling as well.
While the 40 years of absence disappeared in an instant as it relates to the feel and sensation of the glove, and of throwing the ball, other aspects of the experience had, shall we say, lost a bit in the period of absence. 40 years ago, I could throw the ball pretty hard, and with a good deal of accuracy. When Erik and I played catch that day, I was shocked at how many times the ball fell short of the mark I was aiming for. This inability of the body to perform to the standards that the mind/body interface remembers is humbling for sure, but frankly I felt a strong drive to start throwing the ball more, so that I could either approach the standard that my mind recalled, or reset the standard, so that I could find that complete delight that I yearned for.
This melding of human and tool happens when we spend a great deal of time with a particular thing. Our mind/body coordination adapts to the exact dimensions and weight and shape of the thing we’re using, and it becomes wired into us. The “thing†becomes part of us – almost like an arm or a leg is part of us. I really think that our mind develops an attachment to the thing, much like it would to an arm or a leg. At some deep level, the “thing†becomes a part of “meâ€.
I’ll bet there’s an evolutionary advantage to the delight we gain when we meld with a “thing†in this way. Our march toward dominance of the planet has been largely enabled by our ability to use tools so effectively, so it makes sense to me that finding delight in extremely close harmony with a tool – a fascination and exhilaration with “being one with†a tool – would make us more likely to find ways to use tools more effectively with each generation.
Neil with elevators in the background - elevators were a constant across the prairie
This morning, what I know is that I’m delighted by the light and responsive feel of my bike. Just like I smiled when I slipped my old baseball glove on when I played catch with my brother earlier in the summer, I’m smiling at the familiar feel of the bike I love beneath me. I love my bike, I really do.
We stop at the c-store on the way out of town, and grab some fluid and a quick bite of fuel. As I’m stepping out of the door, I notice Dave using his cell phone. I’ve seen him messing with his cell phone before at the beginning of the day, and never really thought about it – I guess I assumed he was checking messages from work or something. But this morning, I come to understand what this cell-phone ritual is.
It’s slick really, and I’m impressed. The computer on the bike keeps track of when we’re rolling and when we’re still, how far we go, how fast we go, and all that. But Dave is applying a little technology to a much more simple approach to how far we go in a day, and how long it takes us to do it. First thing in the morning, as we leave the c-store and hit the highway, Dave sends himself a text message, which records the time. Then, at the end of the day, when we look at each other and decide to call it a day, Dave sends himself another text message. When the trip is all over, we have an official beginning and ending time for each day.
While this might not sound like a big deal, it’s actually quite useful. The bike computers recorded our average times while we were riding, but this doesn’t account for all the time we spend messing around, eating, taking pictures, all of that. Dave’s method allowed us to bookend the days with start and stop times, and just count the miles in between.
Dave riding on up the road
Just one more of Dave’s “counting†things. And as is often the case with these counting things that he does, this one lifted the veil from an interesting little piece of information. That is, our average speed across days was almost identical, no matter what we did and no matter what the wind did.
Of course, any logical reader just re-read that last sentence a couple times, and is dead certain that I either typed it wrong, or somehow or another I just don’t know how to add and average. But I’m tellin’ ya’, it’s absolutely true. In the next chapter, I’m going to talk about some of the expected and unexpected lessons we learned on this ride, and I’ll detail out our daily stats. For now, let me just say that regardless of wind, road,humidity, heat, mileage, mood, moon phase, or anything else, our daily speed including both rolling time and stopped time averaged about 11 mph. Amazingly, the days with tailwinds were NOT the days with the higher averages.
It’s completely counter-intuitive. However, our final day highlights something for me that – as I’ll look back on it later – will help me to get my head around what I think is going on.
On this final day, as we leave the c-store and head out of town, the weather is wonderful once again. The humidity feels good on my face and in my lungs as I ride, and the weatherman promised a NE wind today – a quartering tailwind for us as we ride pretty much due west. Leaving town before any wind has started at all, I’m once again sitting up in the saddle, spending a good deal of time watching the scenery around me, enjoying one more perfect morning.
Quintessential mid-Kansas landscape
We’re deep in the heart of cultivated land, surrounded by young beans, ripening corn, and freshly cut wheat fields. I watch several groups of whitetail deer on the edges of the fields. In some cases they’re using the last few minutes of low light to grab the last snacks before daylight, but generally they’re moving quietly along the edge between the trees and the field, or rapidly across the field headed for that edge where they feel comfortable. In the low light they’re hard to see, but once you find the pattern in your mind’s eye, they start to pop out at you in quite a few of the fields. By the time the sun has crested the horizon and started to shine into the fields, there isn’t a deer to be seen anywhere.
I stop to take pictures several times along the highway. The air is heavy with humidity, painting the landscape with a soft, attractive blanket. This is one of those conditions that I find tough to catch with the camera, so looking back on the pictures later I’ll be disappointed. But this morning, I’m enjoying myself.
We assumed there’d be some good breakfast options along the way when we started out this morning, but we make an early tactical mistake. We pass the turnoff to the little town of Marquette as it’s still pretty early, assuming that we’ll be able to find something else within the hour. If you check out Marquette with Google maps, you’ll see that they’ve got a nice cafe downtown, as well as a c-store. The savvy rider will stop here for a meal, as it’s longer than you expect to the next place to eat.
There’s a certain rhythm that we’ve come to expect along the highway with respect to when we’ll find services, and as I ride this morning, I’m coming to learn a bit about how this rhythm is determined by the nature of who uses the highway, and what they use it for.
Along US-160 across the southern part of Kansas, folks who are traveling are a combination of local residents running errands and doing business, as well as regional residents who are traveling many dozens of miles – maybe 100 miles or more in many cases. In addition, there are a few travelers who are using the highway as their route across the state – traveling many hundreds of miles. Consequently, it’s likely that there’ll be folks who want to stop for refreshments now and again, so in each little town we were able to find a c-store and generally a place to sit and eat.
However, along K-4, you’ll find only local traffic. Anyone traveling east and west for any significant distance will be traveling along I-70, which is not that far north of K-4. Folks on the road are just moving along from point to point, with no need for stops between. Consequently, it’s unlikely that a business would spring up along the way to support those travelers who’d want to stop for some reason – nobody’s stopping.
Tip for the savvy rider: When riding from Lindsborg to Hoisington, it’s probably a good idea to stop in Marquette for breakfast…
It’s not long after passing Marquette that I get the inkling that we’re not going to have our tailwind today. For a few miles we’re headed SW, and it’s definitely a headwind along that stretch, though a very light one. Turning back due west, it feels like when the wind varies from the S, it varies so that it comes slightly from the W. Again, it’s a very light wind, but I’m feeling a little cheated that the promised tailwind has become a crosswind, with a tiny flavor of quartering headwind every now and again.
My reaction is predictable in the face of a wind – I put my head down and go to work.
My mind readjusts quickly to the new events, and resets the expectation for the speed that I’ll ride and how much work it will take to ride. While slightly disappointed, I’m real OK with things – it’s a short ride today, and the wind is light, and it’s a crosswind not a headwind. It’s OK.
But that initial reaction – that “putting my head down and getting to work†– is the key to understanding the fact that our average daily speed was essentially the same regardless of how hard the riding was. Maybe it wouldn’t be the same with everyone – maybe it’s unique to Dave and I. Maybe everyone reacts to things much differently. But I think this little quirk explains why our average daily speed was always the same.
Here’s what happens, (to quote Mr. Monk).
When the wind’s at my back, and the riding’s easy, then I sit up and relax. I spend my energy enjoying my surroundings, being a part of where I am. I fall into the “moment†by reaching out and connecting to what’s around me. I see more, and stop more, and ride easier. I consciously take it easy in order to enjoy my surroundings, and let myself connect.
When the wind’s in front of me, my mindset changes completely. Now, the component of the “moment†that becomes foremost in my mind is the wind, and my need to put my head down and work against the wind. I still find little places where my head comes up and I appreciate what’s around me, but my primary focus is finding and maintaining that sweet spot where my body’s producing efficient work. I fall into the “moment†by reaching inside of me, and finding the harmony of efficient output.
I suppose most folks would scold the second scenario – the condition where I put my head down and work. Most folks would probably say that its better to find a way to enjoy your surroundings even when the work is hard, or maybe to ease off the pedals and just go really slow to avoid too much focus on the work. But I don’t buy that.
I think there’s real joy in hard work. I think we’ve lost touch with that real joy in our culture. I’m certain there are many readers who focus on what I’m missing when I put my head down and work hard. And they’re right – I am missing quite a bit when I do that. That side of the equation is easy for any of us to see, and easy to understand.
Late sunrise on the final day
But there’s a balance to everything. Every time I give something up, there’s something that comes back to balance what I’ve given up. Every time I take something, there’s something I’m giving up. If I reach to pick something up, I have to empty my hand first, right?
And that thing on the other side of this balance beam is the pure joy that comes from hard work. While we’ve come to think of hard work as something to be avoided, we’ve been missing the joy and benefit that it brings into our life. Our culture has built this myth that doing manual labor is a bad thing, and that if we’re successful in life, we can avoid the need to do hard physical labor. While our economy richly rewards executives who sit on their ass all day and wouldn’t know the business end of a shovel if it hit ‘em across the side of the head, it punishes those who spend their days using their hands and their backs to actually produce something – to actually do productive labor.
This balance beam feels to me a bit like that balance between giving and taking. When I sit up and relax – taking in my surroundings – it falls more on the “taking†side of the equation. There’s joy in it for sure, and I love it when it happens. But there’s more to life than just taking it in.
Not that I’m actually “making†anything when I put my head down and ride harder into the wind. It’s still a very selfish action in many ways because in the end it produces joy for me. It’s just that I’m pouring something of myself into what’s around me, and this is what produces the joy inside of me. At the end of the day, there’s surely a sense of accomplishment that comes with that sense of exhaustion, and I’m sure that’s part of what creates the joy in hard work.
But there’s more to it. Earlier I talked about that sweet spot that occurs when the heart rate, respiration rate, and cadence all seem to come together into a sweet harmony. That’s a harmony that only happens at high work output – I’ve never found it otherwise. There’s no waiting for a sense of accomplishment in that case – the joy is right there in the moment – right there in the “doingâ€.
At the end of the day, for all those who criticize those of us who put our heads down and hold our nose to the grindstone rather than sitting up and relaxing and enjoying the moment, I say I get it, and I think you’re right in many cases. However, I’d also say I think there are other ways to enjoy the moment, and other shades and complexions of joy. I’d recommend you find some ways to do hard work whenever you can, and begin to look for the joys locked up in those places where we put our back into the work and let the work carry us away.
Today is a mix, with some moments spent enjoying what’s around me, and some moments putting by back into it and enjoying the work.
Why Aren’t Cattle Truck Drivers As Courteous As Other Truck Drivers?
This might not be a fair question. It’s an over-generalization for sure. But here’s the deal: 35 years ago when I rode on these same highways, it seemed pretty consistent that the truck drivers who were the most dangerous were the ones driving cattle trucks. For years, I figured that wasn’t a fair generalization, and that it probably just seemed that way since so many of the trucks in this part of the country are cattle trucks after all.
In the interest of full disclosure, I need to say that I spent a few years as an over-the-road truck driver in my 20’s. I have no axe to grind with truck drivers – my experience as a cyclist and as a truck driver has been that truck drivers are generally the most safe and courteous drivers on the road. They have to be – their livelihood (and their life) depends on how safe they make the road around them.
But to this point in our ride, the pattern that I’ve been seeing supports my observations from the past on these roads. For whatever reasons, if there’s dangerous behavior on the part of a truck driver, the odds seem pretty good that the truck is a cattle truck.
And this morning is no exception to that “ruleâ€.
The highway along here is much the same as it’s been since we turned onto K4 back at Alta Vista. There’s no shoulder, but the road itself is in pretty good shape. The traffic is so light that nearly always, when a car or truck is passing, they move all the way over into the oncoming lane to pass. I can’t tell you how appreciative a cyclist is when a driver does that. Especially when the driver of a truck does that.
It just makes sense to do that, doesn’t it? Weren’t we all taught as youngsters to respect and take care of the little guy? Aren’t most of our traffic laws designed with that ethic in mind – for the bigger to yield to the smaller? It’s just a matter of common sense, courtesy, and respect. I work hard to maintain that ethic of respect when I drive a vehicle. Even when I ride my bike, I work hard to always yield to a pedestrian or a slower bike.
I’ve noticed as the miles have rolled along on this ride that my ears have gotten quite good at predicting how much space a vehicle is giving me from the sound as they approach. I do wear a mirror, but as a vehicle is approaching, I like to focus all my attention on staying straight and predictable on the road. Twice this morning already, cattle trucks have passed quite close – barely moving over at all as they pass me. Behind me I hear a truck approaching, and it sounds like it’s not going to give me much room. I focus intently on holding the wheels right on the white line, and am nearly blown over as the cattle truck passes within inches of me rather than feet.
There’s no reason he needed to do this. If he moved at all from the center of the lane, it was over to the right to crowd me even more. There was no oncoming traffic, and the road ahead was free and clear for him to see that he had all the road he needed. Purely and simply, he was being an ass. Worse than that, it would have taken only a small variance in my line and he could easily have killed me. I watch ahead as he does the same thing to Dave.
What’s this about? Why on earth does he want to risk the lives of cyclists on the road, and his own ability to make a living driving a truck when he eventually kills someone – because eventually it’s likely he will? This selfish aspect of human nature, this ugly piece of who we are that wants everything for ourself rather than looking for ways to share what we have – especially when sharing costs us nothing, is a piece of our evolutionary makeup that it would sure be nice to find a way to get rid of…
Because at the end of the day, isn’t that what this is most likely about? If you drug that guy out from behind the wheel of that truck, and beat the snot out of him and asked him why he’s being so stupid, most likely he’d have some response that would sound something like, “bikes don’t belong on the highwayâ€. We’ll argue the ups and downs of that later, but for now, let’s let him think he makes some sense, and ask another question: If he saw a little old lady walking down the middle of the road, would he try and run her over? There’s no question she shouldn’t be walking down the middle of the road, but there’s plenty of road, and it’s no big deal to move over a bit and avoid running her over. Just common sense and common courtesy – there’s more road than anyone needs. Now expand that to the bicycle, which does, in fact, have a place on the road, and try to justify attempting to running a cyclist off the road. Pure and simple, that’s what he was doing – trying to run us off the road – his road in his own mind.
Let’s talk more about that later…
Bikes at Cheyenne Bottoms turnout
We’re approaching Hoisington, and we can see the grain elevators in the distance. We pull out at the last highway marker of the trip, and read about the Cheyenne Bottoms Refuge, which we’re now on the edge of. We take the final picture of the bikes there at the pullout, saddle back up and head into Hoisington. It takes us no time at all to find a bar that’s open for lunch downtown, and call Carol and Peggy and let them both know where we are. It’s no surprise to either of them that we’ve found beer and fried food…
After we’ve had a beer and some fried bar food, we pack up the bikes into our respective vehicles. We make the acquaintance of a fella’ who might be traveling through Hoisington, and who might just be a local homeless guy, depending on which complexion of his story you believe. He’s carrying a veritable junkyard worth of old bike gear with him on his old mountain bike, including a couple of extra wheels. It’s tempting to believe that he really is making his way across the country as he says, and that our paths just happened to cross here on Main Street in Hoisington. But as is sometimes the case with folks who find themselves outcast and homeless in our culture, this fella’ seems to be a sandwich or two shy of a picnic.
Regardless, we enjoy the little conversation we have with the guy, and have fun pretending his story is true. It might just be true, but either way, it’s a fun story to listen to. We smile and nod, and he enjoys telling the story.
We make up stories about ourselves that fit the image that we want to believe in about who we are. We’re prone to stretch the truth of these stories a bit here and there to make ‘em fit better. So long as the story we tell is a good one, then people find us interesting, and we feel good about ourselves, right? Just a little grain of truth – that’s all it takes for a story to be a good one. I suppose the only difference between this homeless fella and me is that the stories I make up about me are a little more grounded in a believable reality – but probably only slightly so.
Peggy’s cousin Steve is a world-class storyteller. It’s truly a gift. He’ll tell ya’ straight up that a good bit of what he tells might stretch the truth here and there, or might embellish a spot or two that needed embellishing. But it’s part of a good story – fillin’ in the spots that need fillin’ in, and pullin’ out those pieces that don’t fit that well.
Because it’s about the story we want to believe, and the story is always about the journey we’re on. Whether our homeless friend is headed where he thinks he’s headed, or even if he has no idea where he’s headed, he’s building the story of who he is, and we wish him good luck and many blessings on his journey.
Our adventure is over for now. We’re feelin’ pretty good about the trip we just took. We’re already starting to embellish the stories we’ll tell about the trip. We’re 100% positive that we’ll continue this wonderful tradition with another adventure next summer, but time will judge that promise.
Like all journeys, ours between this ending and the next beginning might take many unexpected turns. When we hit Winfield, we turned our back to the wind and decided to ride where the wind took us. No doubt some of that will happen on our journey to the next adventure. Whether we’re headed where we think we’re headed, or even if we’re completely doped up on where it is that we’re sure we’re headed, we’ll hope for good luck and many blessings between now and the next adventure.
You stand on the near bank of the Rubicon, knowing the way forward takes you to the other side. Once crossed, it’s a river that can’t be uncrossed. Behind is all that’s familiar, ahead is all that’s uncertain.
But when the path ahead lies on the far bank, how long do you sit on the near bank and worry about the path behind, rather than focusing on the path ahead? Do you know in your soul the crossing should be made – the crossing that can’t be undone? You can only get to the other side by leaving this side.
Maybe your job is draining the soul from you through mediocrity. The job is familiar, and some days feel “good enoughâ€. It’s a hard crossing to choose. The ear of your soul hears the path on the other side.
Maybe you have a good job now, but on the other side you see the path of a great opportunity. You like your current job, but the song your soul hears from the other side can’t be ignored.
Maybe it’s a new baby coming into your life soon, and the crossing’s already begun. You’re scared and worried about the path on the other side, but like friends waving in the rear-view mirror as you drive away, you see clearly your old comfortable life fading behind as the far shore of the Rubicon you’re crossing comes closer.
Maybe it’s a decision to go back to college, and leave the routine you’ve become accustomed to. To force yourself into a new routine that leads to places unknown. Maybe it’s an upcoming college graduation. College life is predictable and protected, and the job market’s been lousy for years. What waits on the other side? What will you make of your life when you step away from this near shore?
To quote Caesar, “Let us march where we are called by such a divine intimation. The die is cast.”
Life’s path brings us many times to the edge of the Rubicon. In most cases, we’re called to paths on the far shore, while still held to paths on the near shore. The decision to cross isn’t often easy, and crossing might not always be the right answer. But in all cases, if we’re standing at the bank of the Rubicon, what brought us here? Are we being pushed into the river from behind, or being called from the far shore into the crossing?
My children are all grown, and they’re finding their own crossings, either back into college, or graduating from college, or headed overseas into new jobs. So I’m finding myself spending a great deal of time on the banks of the Rubicon, wondering why my path has brought me here. I’m enjoying the bank of the river, listening carefully with the ears of my soul. It’s good to have age and patience on your side when life leads you to the bank of the Rubicon.
At One. In agreement. Reconciled. To bring together something that was separate. Harmony rising from dissonance.
Bring the words together to make the verb atone. The meaning is the same. To bring into a state of “at one-nessâ€. To come into harmony.
Things become separate for many reasons. I aim for one result, but find another. I miss the mark that I was aiming for. There are several Hebrew words that get translated into the single English word “sinâ€. One of these Hebrew words has exactly this meaning – to miss the mark, as-in an archer missing his mark.
Standing on the bridge between the past and the future, I can look back and see where I missed the mark, and ended up with a different outcome than I aimed for. Where I caused a break or ill feelings in a relationship. Where I sought harmony, and instead created dissonance. I accept responsibility, and seek to “put right†what I can – I atone – I try to bring back the state of “at-one-nessâ€.
The English language has a way to turn the verb atone into a noun. We simply add “ment†to the end of the verb, and we create the noun. Atonement. The “state†of having brought together that which was separate, having mended what needs mending, having found harmony from dissonance.
The path to the state of atonement requires action on our part. We must choose to put right what we’ve broken. Looking back down the path behind, where do I see separation? Where do I hear dissonance? What actions are required of me to bring together what’s separate, to allow harmony to emerge from dissonance?
Soon I’ll look in front of me down the path to the future, and make decisions about how to move forward. Doing this requires me to understand how and why I missed the mark in the past. Understanding the darkness in yesterday helps me bring light into tomorrow.
Accepting responsibility. Making amends. Asking forgiveness. Accepting the Light that comes with At-One-Ness…
When designing a garden, we like to create “transition momentsâ€. A transition moment is a place to stop as you move along the garden path. A place to stop and look forward and backward. Looking backward lets us see the path we’ve been walking on, and the garden we’ve been walking through, only now from another perspective. Looking forward lets us evaluate the path in front of us.
A transition might be defined by a wide spot in the path, or a wide spot accompanied by a sharp turn, or maybe a bridge. The best “transition moments†in a garden force us to make a decision, to decide on one path or another, to aim for one place in the garden or the other.
Along the path of life, we’re presented with transition moments all the time – probably far more often than we realize. Sometimes they’re planned moments, sometimes they’re ritual moments, and sometimes they’re moments of surprise that jump out of the bushes at us. Sometimes they’re all 3 at once.
Jewish tradition marks the passing of each year as one of those important transition moments in life. Each year, Rosh Hashanah marks the bridge that we cross from one year to the next. On that bridge, we stand and reflect – to look back and to look forward. In looking back, we honestly accept responsibility for the path that we’ve walked for the past year, looking directly into the eye of both the good and the bad for which we’re responsible.
On a garden path, a well-designed “transition moment†will hold me for a few minutes. It won’t rush me forward onto the next section of path, but will hold me a moment, to enjoy the reflection and appreciation that the moment offers.
As we pause on the bridge between the years at Rosh Hashanah, we take the time for reflection and appreciation. We don’t rush forward into the next year, but take the time to reflect and understand. We make decisions thoughtfully and intentionally. Jewish tradition defines this period as the High Holy Days that begin with Rosh Hashanah, and progress for 10 days toward Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement.
Rosh Hashanah begins this evening at sundown for Jews around the world. I wasn’t raised with Jewish tradition, but I’m quite taken by this holiday period and what it represents. While this might not be a holiday that I celebrate by tradition, I can incorporate its sacred lessons, habits, and behavior into the next 10 days of my life. I can look for way to see this as a bridge upon which I pause and reflect, looking back down across the path that I’ve been walking.
Thunderstorms rolled through the Flint Hills overnight, and the air is heavy with humidity as we strap the bags onto the bikes in the dark this morning. There’s a light fog around us, and I can sense a heavy fog hanging above – between me and the sky. Some combination of sight and sound and smell makes that layer apparent in the dark. I’ve often wondered how we know it’s there, but we seem to be good at sensing it.
We fill the bottles with water, as we’re not sure if we’re going to find a c-store on our ride north along K177. Technically we go through Strong City right away, but we’re not sure what we’ll find this early. We each eat a granola bar – again just in case there aren’t any c-store calories waiting for us. Better safe than sorry…
The roads are still wet from the overnight rain. There’s a delightful quality to the sound of riding your bike down the streets of a small town early in the morning, before there’s light and before anyone’s up. The sound of the tires on the road and the chain as it turns bounce with a lonely feel off the walls of the homes as you pass. It’s one of my favorite parts of bicycle riding – that early-morning ride through a small town. This morning it’s enhanced by the light fog around us as we ride.
K177 follows a route that misses “downtown†Strong City. By doing this, we avoid a mile or so of travel on US56, which would have been greatly appreciated during the day when the road is busy, but this time of the morning, we’d have preferred to go through the middle of town in case there was a c-store. We recognize what’s happened when we’re crossing over US56 a mile or two west of town. We briefly consider heading back to town in search of a c-store, but quickly decide it’s not worth it – we’ve taken in a few calories, and we’ve got full water bottles.
Hills south of Council Grove
It’s about a 20 mile ride to Council Grove before breakfast this morning. The air’s absolutely still as we move into the beautifully rolling landscape of the Flint Hills north of Cottonwood Falls. This section of highway might be one of the most beautiful in the country. (I probably said that about the last section too, didn’t I?) The combination of cool morning temperature and complete lack of wind of any sort, combined with the anticipation of riding this section of highway that I love so much, has me energized and excited.
I feel myself trying to edge toward riding harder – maybe getting up out of the saddle and hitting the pedals hard on some of the climbs. As my heart rate settles into a nice high-aerobic rate, and the respiration rate rises on the short climbs, I feel my body trying to find that aerobic “sweet spot†that’s so enjoyable.
This “aerobic sweet-spot†is fascinating to me. I’m not sure if most people experience it or not, but I know Dave has expressed that it happens to him. It’s not exclusive to cycling, but seems to happen with any aerobic activity that has a rhythm to it. Since I’m an atrocious runner, I can’t speak about running, but I know it happens when climbing hillsides on foot and when cross-country skiing.
I don’t have a good singing voice, but I’m passable at harmonizing with other voices. When I’ve sung with folks in the past – especially when singing accapella – there’s a really sweet thing that happens when the voices come into tune with one another. It usually doesn’t just happen with the first note, but rather it’s a progression that starts with folks struggling to find the right pitch. You steal sideways glances at each other, and might see a furrowed brow now and again. Folks are leaning away from the other voices to avoid distraction. Then, as the tune progresses, you hit a spot here and there where the voices come together very nicely. From these little spots of good harmony coming together, folks begin to smile, the wrinkles smooth out of brows, and tension is replaced by relaxation. Folks start to sing with their ears, letting the voice in their vocal chords act as a piece of what their ears are hearing. Most of the time, this is as far as it gets – a few really sweet spots where the harmony is just right, surrounded by a tune that’s close enough to sound pleasant.
But now and again, something happens that feels like a little piece of heaven. The voices come together in a perfect harmony, and they stay there. When this happens, eyes close, and everyone leans together so they can better hear the voice as a whole. Instead of 4 voices, the sound becomes a single voice. If you’re lucky enough to be part of that when it happens, it makes the hair on the inside of the back of your head stand up. You feel chills all the way to your toes. You never want the singing to stop. When it does stop, you feel an unspoken connection to the others in the group that’s quite powerful.
South of Council Grove
The aerobic sweet spot is a little like that sort of voice harmony to me. It builds slowly, and usually happens on a long climb – especially a gradual climb. My legs find a cadence that feels good. My respiration rate falls into some connection with that pedaling cadence, and it feels particularly good. Sometimes, that’s the end of it, and it’s a really enjoyable climb. But now and then, the heart finds a rate that blends well with the respiration and the cadence, and this sweet feeling of harmony wraps itself around me, and I never want the climb to end.
It’d be interesting to know if there is really a connection in the rhythm of these 3 functions – cadence, breathing, and heart-rate. When you’re in that sweet-spot, are the 3 rhythms actually relating to one another – could you see a pattern like you’d see in music? When it’s happening, the last thing I want to do is start to analyze something, so I never really try and pay attention – I just fall into the little slice of heaven that’s happening around me. Pedal, breathe, smile, and enjoy.
I also know that when I find this sweet-spot, I’m not fully aerobic. That is, the rates are high enough that I’m burning calories anaerobically. My sense is that I’m extremely efficient in how I’m burning the calories, but I’m anaerobic none-the-less. This morning, depending primarily on stored calories and hoping for 120+ miles before the day is over, the last thing I need to do is start to dip into the glycogen tank by burning calories anaerobically before I’ve even had breakfast.
So I sit back and focus on the wonder of the morning around me, resisting the temptation to lose myself in that sweet-spot harmony of strenuous work. It’s easy to focus instead on the world unfolding itself around me this morning as the sun moves toward daylight. It’s hasn’t risen yet, but it’s letting us know it’s on its way with a wonderful light show bouncing off the low clouds on the horizon, enhanced by fog that’s still stealing across the plains and hiding low in the valleys.
Hayfield early in the morning
We come to the Tallgrass Prairie National Preserve, and stop to admire the place. I try taking some pictures, but I’m not hopeful that they’ll turn out well in the low early-morning light. The architecture of both the house and the immense barn structure are beautiful, and we admire the property for a few minutes.
This farm is headquarters for the 11,000 acre preserve. It was built in the mid-1800s as a mansion for a large landowner/cattleman from southeastern Colorado, and changed hands many times since. In the end, it was combined with other properties to form the approximately 11,000 acres that are the current preserve.
When I lived here 35 years ago, the notion of a Tallgrass Prairie Preserve was being hotly debated. Back then, there was a significant portion of the regional population, as well as many at a national level, who could see in the Flint Hills the remnants of what was once the vast savanna of the Great Plains. The only reason that it still survived in the Flint Hills was that, with the exception of a few rich bottom lands, the hills weren’t suited to farming. Consequently, there were some pretty big stretches that had never been tilled, and still held a good measure of native grasses.
There are several varieties of tallgrass native to this region, but Big Bluestem was the dominant player in the tallgrass prairie, (Indian Grass and Switchgrass were also common). While Big Bluestem takes quite a while to become established when it’s first planted, it slowly and methodically expands and strengthens its root system over the years, eventually reaching deeply into the rocky soil in a way that allows it to withstand the ferocious winds, blistering heat, and deadly cold that’s part of life on the prairie.
Prior to 1820, it’s estimated there were 240 million acres of tallgrass prairie across the Great Plains. As America evolved into the version that we know now, the vast majority of this prairie was broken and tilled to be used as farmland. By the 1970’s, only a tiny portion of that original prairie still held the native tallgrass that had defined it. Some of that tiny portion existed in the Flint Hills, where generations of private ranch ownership had used the land for grazing. Generally, grazing is exactly what the prairie wants. However, when Big Bluestem matures and gets big about the middle of the summer, it’s value as forage to domestic cattle goes down dramatically. Consequently, grazing practice over the generations in the Flint Hills has evolved to a very efficient system, where large number of young cattle are brought in about April, and they graze until sometime in July, when the grasses are starting to get too mature. Then the cattle are taken to market, and the land waits until the next grazing season, or in some cases are cut for hay. This works well, except for the fact that Big Bluestem doesn’t tolerate heavy grazing well – especially early in the season. So year after year, the stands of Big Bluestem decrease little by little as they’re heavily grazed when they’re young. The prairie exists and all seems to be in balance, but the “tall†is being taken out of the tallgrass prairie, replaced with species that are more tolerant of the grazing patterns that come with domestic cattle production.
I should mention that Little Bluestem is also a pretty common plant that exists throughout the prairie. My guess is that it would grow just about anywhere in the country. It’s a beautiful plant whose seed-heads stand about 3’ tall in late summer. As autumn progresses, Little Bluestem ripens into the glory of the prairie, standing a beautiful rusty red throughout the winter. By the time spring finally rolls around, the ripened and dead top has finally surrendered to winter, laying down on the ground to let the new growth of spring push past it toward the sky. This species is a big player in prairie that’s referred to as “midgrass prairieâ€.
Big Bluestem, on the other hand, is a massive plant. I’ve hunted birds in fields that’ve been restored to large stands of Big Bluestem, and it’s like working your way through a forest. The seed-heads are 8’ tall, and the plant base is 6’ in diameter or more. I can imagine a stretch of prairie where Big Bluestem has established itself, and has been growing for hundreds of years. It once ruled the tallgrass prairie, and I imagine it was Big Bluestem that caused early white settlers to talk about prairie grasses to high you had to stand in the stirrups of your saddle just to see over the top.
As the years went by and Big Bluestem was pushed further and further from dominance in the tallgrass prairie, a number of efforts were launched to try and find a way to establish some sort of National Park or other protected area, where Big Bluestem could be allowed to reestablish itself, and the “tall†could come back to the tallgrass prairie.
Conservation organizations tried many times to find a way to establish a park or preserve over the years. Local landowners, however, were distrustful of government, and didn’t want the government to own a big piece of the Flint Hills. A generation earlier, the federal government had come in and used eminent domain buy up large tracks of land to flood for Tuttle Creek Reservoir – there were probably other examples like this as well – and this left a bad taste in the mouths of the landowning community in the area.
This is a classic battle in our country. Our culture is fiercely devoted to the rights of individuals, and from the early days we’ve defended private ownership of land, and the rights of the landowner. (Of course, we only got this fervor after we’d used eminent domain principles to take the land from its previous owners in the first place – the native cultures who were here before we were – but that’s a discussion for another time…)
So long as there was an endless supply of land still to the west of us we were OK. As we moved west, we would simply use the might of the federal government to apply principles of eminent domain, and take the land from the existing “ownersâ€. But once we “settled†the land, and re-established ownership under European sounding names, we forgot how much we’d previously supported the notion of the federal government obtaining land in the interest of the nation as a whole. We became fierce supporters of the rights of the individual property owner, and we began to despise any efforts on the part of the federal government to act in the interest of the common good over the interest of the individual owner.
I describe the narrative in this way because it’s important to understand the history of the role of the federal government in land disputes. From the earliest stages of the development of our nation, the federal government has been active in defining the shape of our nation, and the ownership and control of the land of our nation.
It was under the leadership of a visionary Republican president, with the support of both houses of congress under Republican control, that the country took a dramatic turn toward increased involvement of the federal government in the management of vast tracks of land in this country for the common good. It was Teddy Roosevelt who began the National Park System, and who defined and shaped strategy and policy that recognized clearly the need for the federal government to act on behalf of “The People†of the nation overall, even when this was at odds with the interests of individual owners.
Which really brings us back to that word – conservative. I make no bones about the fact that Teddy is my #1 hero in the history of presidents in this country. He was conservative deep into his bones, and believed passionately in a new kind of conservation. While he absolutely supported the principles of individual land ownership, and was a fierce defender of the rights of the individual, he also believed deeply in the principles of pluralism upon which our country was founded. He believed that the interests of The Common Good, or The People, were the interests that the government needed to defend. And as a conservative – a conservationist – he brought more land in our country under government stewardship than all other presidents combined – before and since.
Of course, with power comes corruption, and there’s no doubt that there have been many instances in the history of federal, state, and local government in our country where the power of the state has been abused in the “taking†of property from individual landowners. Look at any major city in this country, and you’re likely to find that the city abused power in the taking of land to build sports stadiums, and that the primary beneficiary of this action was generally a very small group of wealthy owners. Not to discount that the public in general might enjoy some benefit from these stadiums, but when you try and stack the “common good†of a new stadium against the rights of the previous owners of the property, I suspect the math rarely works out so that it’s really “worth it†to the common good to take that property. A few who are already wealthy get more wealthy, the ownership rights of several people are stripped, and the “common good†might see a tiny little boost.
In this particular case, I really believe that the great fear was leftover from what folks in the area considered the abuses of power of the federal government when they created Tuttle Creek Reservoir. Throughout the Midwest, the Army Corps of Engineers was taking possession of thousands of tracks of rich farmland, and flooding it beneath a network of reservoirs meant to allow control of flooding further downstream in the Kansas, Missouri, and Mississippi drainage systems. Once the Corps decided on a project, they came in and took what they needed to create their reservoir.
I suspect that this network of flood-control measures has reduced downstream flooding tremendously over the past 4 or 5 decades, but I’m not qualified to argue that science. For the sake of argument, let’s say it has. We were able to control flooding downstream, but doing so required that we take the land of hundreds of farmers upstream. Surely some good resulted, but was enough “greater good†won to justify the taking of the land? Was something saved that couldn’t be replaced?
If you’re one of the landowners who lost your land, the answer is probably no. If you’re one of the folks downstream who experiences less flooding, the answer is probably yes. But what about me and the other 99%+ of America – do we feel that the equation was fairly weighed out? I can only speak for myself, and I’ve got to say that I’m not so sure the system was worth it. Why not accept that flooding occurs, and make sure that when people build in a flood plain, they accept responsibility and risk? Sure we loose some portions of cities, but when it happens, rebuild on higher ground. Even if the government picked up some of the tab, how much would we have saved when compared to the cost of building and maintaining this network of reservoirs? Bottom line – the costs incurred from a flood are avoidable – don’t build in the flood plain. If you choose to build in the flood plain, why should the federal government – The People of our nation – step in and bail you out? All we do is set ourselves up for continual and endless bailouts when disasters strike.
In the case of the Tuttle Creek project, I think I’d come down on the side of the landowners – there’s just not enough common good at risk to justify taking land. I could sure be full of s–t, but that’s the way I see it.
In the case of finding a place to preserve the final remnant of a once giant sea of tallgrass prairie, I think I see enough greater good to justify it. But the funny thing was, in this case, there probably wasn’t a lot of eminent domain type purchasing that would be required. In the end, after the preserve was created, the Nature Conservancy stepped in and bought all the land. So, it sits in private ownership, managed by the federal government. I suppose that’s a nice compromise that gets the job done. And of course, there’re probably big pieces of the story that I just don’t get.
House along K177 south of Council Grove
The most important piece of this story to me is how important it is to see things from the other guy’s perspective. If I’m a landowner in this area, I’ve been brought up with a severe distrust of the government. No different than the Pawnee or Kansa tribes that lived here before, and were swindled by us through our federal government out of their land. Both sets of landowners distrust the government, because they’ve both seen abuse. They’re distrustful for good reason – they want their individual rights to the land protected above all else, and the federal government has proven that it will sometimes come down to protect the greater good of The People over the individual rights of owners.
On the other hand, folks who would benefit from the Prairie Preserve – essentially everyone who isn’t a landowner in the discussion – sees benefit, and can’t figure out why landowners are so distrustful. They stand to benefit from a Prairie Preserve, in that we’ll successfully preserve an important ecological piece of this great nation. These folks aren’t a bunch of wild-eyed radicals – they’re average Americans who believe in conservation and preservation – they’re extremely conservative in this respect. In fact, they’re probably a whole lot like the ancestors of the current landowners, who saw great benefit when the government took the land in the first place from the Pawnee and the Kansa.
Remember back on Day 1 of our ride – back when we talked with the folks who were opposing the expansion of the bombing range in southern Colorado? To my little tiny eyes, that’s a clear case of government abuse in trying to take land for something that just doesn’t serve enough common good to warrant the taking of the land.
Every situation is different. There isn’t a single right answer that applies all the time. That’s what I loved about the way Teddy approached things – pluralism – looking for that balance that represents the broadest possible interests while respecting individual rights.
We do live in a wonderful country, don’t we? How lucky we are. Lucky indeed.
K177 headed north approaching Council Grove
And I’m feeling like one of the luckiest guys in the world this morning as I enjoy this perfect morning ride. This morning I take more pictures than any other morning of the ride. Before we stop for breakfast in Council Grove, I take over 100 pictures. In one spot, I’m so taken with the gestalt of the morning – the combination of beautiful early morning light, zero wind, low traffic, and the glorious morning sounds that I stop the bike and turn on my digital voice recorder – seeing if I can pick up some semblance of how nice the birds sound this morning. I’m not real handy with the machine, so just hit the “record†button and hold the little machine up in the air for a minute.
Dave in Council Grove
After an hour or so on the road, we make a nice fast descent into Council Grove. There’s a lot of history in this little town. It was a key point of “interface†for the Indian tribes that owned this land before we did, it was an important supply and provision point on the Santa Fe Trail, and it was the site of more than one important “treatyâ€.
Council Grove was right at the boundary between the lands of the Pawnee and the lands of the Kansa prior to the middle of the 19th century. What became known as the Santa Fe Trail had been a trading trail for many generations prior to the coming of the wagon trains, and I suppose it made sense that this ancient trading route would serve as a boundary between nations.
We look for a place to eat breakfast. There may be more places open for breakfast, but we found only the Saddlerock Cafe. I suppose with a great place like this to eat, a little town might not need any other breakfast spots. It’s toward the east end of town, just south of the main drag through town, at about 6th and Main.
Bikes at the Saddlerock Cafe in Council Grove
Their chicken-fried steak and eggs might be the best of the trip. We end up sitting down next to the “big table†– the one where the local men gather for breakfast in the morning. It’s not a particularly big (physically) table, so the guys sort of rotate through as is generally the practice when it comes to this grand small-town tradition.
After breakfast we climb back into the saddle, and head further on up K-177. The wind is supposed to come up out of the NE today, so we hope to make it to Alta Vista and K-4 before it kicks up. By the time we reach K-4 and turn west, the wind has been hitting us in the face more and more strongly, and the left turn feels heavenly.
I’ve probably said it a dozen or more times, and I’m gonna say it again: There are few things in life as sweet as turning your bicycle so that the wind stops beating you, and starts to favor you. One minute you’re hearing the constant irritation of the wind blowing in your ear, frustrated by slow progress working against the wind, and the next minute a sweet and beautiful world opens up to you. The wind is on your back, the pedaling is suddenly easy, the sounds of the prairie around you replace the bitter wind in your ear, and you begin to notice the sweet smells blowing across your face.
K-4 has no shoulder on it, but the traffic volume is so sparse that it really doesn’t matter. While we’re still in the Flint Hills as we turn west, it doesn’t take long until the landscape around us has changed from prairie grasses to tilled farmland. We’ve transitioned to yet a new face of Kansas along this highway, with a deep earthy smell when we pass recently tilled fields with dark black soil. The population seems sparse still, though it seems to get a little thicker as we move west during the day.
On the map, it would appear that there are towns every 15 or 20 miles. While this is true, don’t expect to find much in the way of services in these towns. Since they are not on a major highway, they seem to serve a pretty small population. While you can find a gas station at most of them, and a c-store if you’re lucky, a place to sit and eat is pretty much out of the question until you hit Herrington. And if you want to eat at Herrington, you’ll need to detour off of K-4 to the south for 3 or 4 miles to get to a Pizza Hut. This morning we don’t want to take a chance, so we make the detour and eat at the Pizza Hut. As it turns out, there’s a place in Hope that we could have eaten as well, which is probably about 15 miles west of Herrington. Noon buffet at Pizza Hut is pretty hard to beat when you’re looking for lots of calories though…
One thing that surprises me along K-4 is that I’m still seeing Scissortail Flycatchers. I’m not sure why I’m so fascinated by these birds. They have a long scissor-tail, as the name would suggest, and they’re quite pretty. In addition, they’re grace in the air is pretty hard to match, and they seem to display and enjoy their graceful gift often as they frolic in the air in pairs between the power lines and the fence lines. It may be that they’re actually catching bugs together like that, but it sure looks like dancing in the air to me.
I don’t remember these birds appearing this far north 35 years ago when I lived here. It might be that they were here and I just never saw them, or it might be that they’ve extended their range northward as part of the general warming that appears to be effecting us. Whatever the reason, I’m happy to see them.
D-ave along K4
I’ve been trying to point them out to Dave, but have never been riding close enough to him when I see them to get his attention. He’s stopped up ahead at a dirt road, and I’m excited because I see several Scissortails on the lines overhead. I point and holler, and he smiles and nods his head – I assume letting me know that he sees them. When I get up there though, he’s enthralled with the road sign that he’s stopped under, and hasn’t seen the flycatchers at all. The road that he stopped at is called D Avenue, and the sign reads “D aveâ€. Cute. The flycatchers are gone, so I take “D ave’s†picture by his sign, hoping they’ll return so he can see them. A couple of them do, so I feel great to have shared this wonderful little bird with “D aveâ€. He nods and smiles with obligatory appreciation, but I’m pretty sure the street sign is way more cool to “D ave†than are my little flycatchers…
With the wind at my back, I’m sitting higher in the saddle, and looking around more. I’m seeing lots of birds and hawks this morning, including several pair of Red-headed Woodpeckers. We don’t get those in Colorado either. I’m excited to point these out to Dave as well, and I get the obligatory smile and “neatâ€, but I’m pretty sure Dave’s still watching the street signs. And I’m right of course, because pretty soon he describes to me the pattern that this particular county seems to use in naming their roads. Turns out this is one of the many things that Dave’s been counting and cataloging along our way – how the different counties name their roads.
Dave loves to do that stuff. Count things, catalogue things, find the patterns. Did you know that “Main Street†almost always runs north and south in towns through southeast Colorado and southern Kansas? I might have that wrong, and Dave’ll correct me when he reads this if I do. But they consistently run one way or the other. This is one of the many little patterns that Dave pointed out to me as we rode. I think he found an exception or two, (he can probably tell you exactly how many and where they were), but it was clearly a consistent pattern. Typing these words, I’ve checked Google to see if someone else has explained this, but am unable to (easily) come across this observation. But it’s true.
Bringing us back to that wonderful yin and yang thing that goes on between Dave and I on this ride – the difference in what we see, what we notice, what we enjoy, and how the miles pass beneath our wheels. Dave’s commented on it before, and today I’m noticing it more than any other day of riding. Dave focuses on the “things†of the ride, hence the counting and the cataloging. Neil focuses on the “experience†of the ride – the moment if you will.
I love being mature enough to appreciate this difference. There’s no right/wrong or better/worse about this fundamental difference. Dave stated it one day earlier in the ride in a way that made it clear that he thought it would be better to be able to “experience the moment†rather than “count the thingsâ€, but I still don’t agree with him. Sure I’m finding exquisite joy in our ride this morning, but Dave is smiling and enjoying the ride just as much as I am. He’s busy cataloging road names, counting miles, making all sorts of connections to patterns that I’ll never see. He’s smiling the whole time. I’m oblivious to the things that are giving him joy because I’m wrapped in the experience of the “moments†that I’m passing through. It’s his focus on those things that are giving him joy that distract him and keep him from experiencing the ride in the same way that I do.
Neil at a break along K4
And right now, riding west along K-4 with the wind at my back, its the sweet smell of alfalfa that I’m experiencing. I’ve been around alfalfa all my life, and I’ve never noticed until today just how intoxicating that sweet smell can be. Off to my right is a quarter section of rich ground planted in alfalfa that hasn’t been cut at all yet this year. The flowers cover the field as far as you can see, and the butterflies and bees form a thick layer of activity over the top of the flowers. The smell is a deep one that blooms in the top of your head as you breathe in, and then hangs deep in the back of your throat with each breath. A mile further down the road, I’m still able to taste that deep, rich smell in the back of my throat.
Alfalfa is a fun crop to observe. It’s a perennial that comes back for several years. I’m not a farmer, but I’ve had farmers explain the cycle to me before, and I’ve come to appreciate the cycle when I hunt farmland for whitetail deer. (Alfalfa is to whitetail deer as tenderloin steak is to me.) It seems that when you plant Alfalfa, the first couple of years are the best and richest crops, and then the quality of the crop starts to drop off significantly. By the time you’re 3 or 4 years past the planting year, it’s time to plant something else. Which works out great because Alfalfa – being a legume – sets the nitrogen into the soil, making the soil that much better for nitrogen-hungry crops like corn. Synergy.
This field must be in its first or second year, judging by the thick, rich plants. A couple miles down the road, as Dave and I are riding together for a change, I mention the field to him, and he has, indeed, noticed the smell. I make some comment to him about alfalfa, as-if to educate him on this little bit of knowledge that I’ve got about farming, and he looks at me as-if I’m describing to him how to pedal a bike. Dave, you see, did grow up on a farm. This little tidbit that I had to wait until I was probably 30 years-old to learn was something that he probably knew before he was very far out of diapers. Maybe I exaggerate. But suffice it to say I feel pretty silly – a city kid trying to tell a farm kid about farming…
We have one more day to ride on our adventure, and this fact hits me about the middle of the afternoon. Carol is driving across Kansas today, and will pick Dave up tomorrow and head back to Colorado. It strikes me that she could drive to Lindsborg where we’re likely to end up tonight, and we could all have dinner together, not to mention that Dave and Carol could have a room to themselves, meaning (selfishly) that I’d have a room to myself. I tell Dave about this idea, (making it sound, I’m sure, like I was suggesting this for his benefit), and he calls Carol and they hatch a plan.
Now we have our hard destination for the day – Lindsborg. I’m really happy about this, as I have fond memories of Lindsborg from when I lived in Kansas. I remember it as a friendly and quaint town, and I’m sure Carol will love it. While part of me now starts to feel excitement and anticipation about “nearing the finish line†tomorrow, the other half of me is feeling pretty blue about the ride ending. (I should mention that the part of me that sits on the saddle is definitely anticipating the finish line…)
As we near Interstate 135 running north and south between Salina and Wichita, K-4 turns south and parallels the interstate for a while. This section has a shoulder, but it’s also very busy with both car and truck traffic. When we come to Assaria, the signs tell us that K-4 turns right. Turning right here would be a mistake for a bicycler, because if you follow the “official†K-4, you’ll spend about 4 miles on I-135. The savvy cyclist will NOT follow the sign and turn right here, but will stay on the nicely paved road headed south, and eventually join up with the official K-4 where it exits the interstate. It’s pretty dang silly that they did this.
On this day, Dave and I are not savvy cyclists, and are not aware of this little mistake. We follow the sign, and turn right. In about half a mile, we cross the overpass, and see the mistake – we see that in order to stay on 4, we’ll need to get on the interstate for a few miles. We’re not willing to do this, and just keep riding forward. The road we’re on is paved, and surely we’ll come to a paved road headed south soon, and this will take us to Lindsborg.
Someone should do a doctoral thesis someday on why it is that male humans find it so hard to turn around and backtrack. Our choice here is a really simple one: Backtrack half a mile and follow the nice paved road south, or just keep going forward on the off-chance that a nice paved road will appear out in the middle of nowhere that will take us to where we want to go. How stupid would we have to be to just keep riding forward? Deranged. Idiotic. A sandwich or two shy of a picnic.
Of course, we keep riding forward. After several miles, we comment to each other that the smart thing to do would have been to backtrack. Right. But it’s too late now, right? Duh. So, we get on a gravel road headed south, and the final 10 miles of the day into Lindsborg we ride a gravel road on skinny road tires. Which is a lot better than backtracking…
Dave and I beat Carol to Lindsborg by 2 beers. By the time she rolls in, we’re feelin’ pretty dang good. I notice that she’s not sitting very close to Dave, and figure maybe it’d be nice if we connected with a motel and showered before we ate. Carol agrees – quite enthusiastically it seems to me. We decide a nice little B&B would be fun, so we decide to try a couple that we’ve seen downtown.
Lindsborg really is a pretty little town. But I’m a bit disappointed by the general “feeling†of the town today. We walk into a B&B downtown – I think it was The Swedish Country Inn – and the guy behind the counter is downright snotty to us when we ask if he has any rooms. He doesn’t have any, and doesn’t know of anyone who might. Maybe he’s just having a bad day. But the gal who waits on us at supper is a little less than happy as well. Maybe it’s just a bad day in Lindsborg.
After all the miles we’ve ridden, and all the little towns we’ve been through on this adventure, I guess we’ve come to expect a certain sort of midwestern “feelingâ€. I can’t really call it “friendlyâ€, though it certainly is that. Hospitality doesn’t seem like quite the right word either. It’s something bigger than either of these things.
I think it’s that genuine and real sense of care and concern that we’ve felt from so many folks along the road. Not overtly friendly. Not all sugary-sweet fake hospitality. Real, heartfelt care and concern. That’s what we’ve come to learn about the little towns and the people who live there.
That’s a rare thing, and one that we found often along our road. I’m realizing tonight how lucky we’ve been to have experienced it so often on this trip.
A young friend was sharing with me recently that she had decided that she no longer wanted to pursue a career in Corporate America, and now wanted to become a social worker. Of course she realized that she’d never become wealthy pursuing such a career, but she clearly felt “calledâ€, and I was impressed with her passion.
This young person will likely truly “become†a social worker of some sort. Who knows where life will take her as she defines herself with this calling, but there’s little doubt in my mind that she’ll follow a path defined by who she’s become, and that the path she follows will be defined by her heart and soul.
In the event that she lives to be 100, will she look back across the years of her life, and say that in her life, a social worker is what she “was�
How do we define our lives, in the context of our whole life? When you’re 25, it’s easy to think of this year and next year, maybe even the next 5 years. When you’re 50, it’s easier to think of the last 20 years, and the next 20 years.
In the world within which our ancestors evolved, a context of a year or two was really all that mattered. A context of 5 years was a long time, and 20 years was a lifetime.
But today, the context within which we define our lives has changed a great deal. We live a lot longer than our ancestors did – our lives today might span 2 or 3 of the lifetimes of only a few hundred years ago. We’re blessed with lives of relative luxury, with a great deal of time to reflect, and meditate, and re-create. In our lives today, when we come to the end of the path, and face the clearing at the end of life, (to borrow a metaphor), how will we measure and define the life and the path that we’ve traveled?
Will my young friend look back and see the life she lived and call herself a social worker? If she’s lucky enough to travel a path that’s long, and lives to a ripe old age, I suspect not. Even if she works for many years in the field, and does many good things – in the tradition of so many great souls in this world – there’s a pretty good chance that she won’t define herself that way.
I have a good friend who spent 40 years in Corporate America as an executive. He’s been retired for several years now. Each year I notice that the way he refers to himself when he meets people evolves a little bit. When he first retired, he introduced himself as a retired executive – not necessarily in those words but that was the gist of the description. Today, he introduces himself as an outdoorsman who hunts and fishes and cycles. Depending on how deep into the discussion he gets, he’ll eventually get around to the part where he spent 40 years in Corporate America, and retiring as an executive.
But that’s not who he became. After only 10 years of retirement, he’s no longer that thing that he spent 40 years becoming. For 40 years it probably seemed important, but now as he looks back along the path behind him, it was only how he spent his time – it wasn’t who he became.
I had the enormous privilege of spending a couple of hours with my grandmother the other day. She’s 101 this year. She believes that she’s nearing the end, and she hears the clearing at the end of the path calling to her. I believe her, and sitting with her, I hear a little of the whisper that she must be hearing. It’s hard to say goodbye, knowing that the next time we meet will probably be beyond that clearing that calls to her today.
But she’s smiling and happy as she looks forward. She feels the comfort of the clearing as it calls to her, and she’s had enough of the trials and tribulations that a 101 year-old body puts a person through.
We talked much of the wonderful life that she’s had. We looked at old photos again, and she could tell me who all the people were in the photographs. Friends she’s known all her life, grandkids and greats and great-greats, even the spouses. It’s astounding to listen to her tell about the day that a particular photo was taken, and who was there, and what they were celebrating, even though the photo was taken in the ’20’s or the ’30’s.
There’s joy and gratitude in her eyes and in her voice as she looks back down the path behind her, and there’s wonder in her eyes as she looks forward to the transition and the clearing that she’s approaching.
She was a hard-working young woman, a bride and wife, a mom, a grandmother, and a friend. She became an old woman with bright eyes, a warm heart, and a beautiful soul. Nowhere in the resume that she lists today are any of the “jobs†that she held to make money. Oh she remembers them and can tell you about them, but they weren’t who she was, and certainly not who she became.
I’ll miss my grandma when she makes that next transition, when she makes that final crossing in this life, when she “becomes†yet one more time. I hope I’m still learning from her, and taking care about what I want to become in this life.
A story that NPR ran recently talks about the “slowing down of time†when a person falls. The story on their website expands the concept to essentially any time that we get “adrenaline chargedâ€.
Probably everyone has experienced this phenomenon at some point in their life, where after some event that was charged with lots of adrenaline, we have memories of the event that are in great, slow-motion detail.
The article had some great information in it, but seemed to focus on a pretty dry perspective of why this might happen – sort of the nuts and bolts of what’s going on in our brain and the rest of our body. While this is interesting for sure, I find that the more intriguing side of this story is really the guts of what we might be capable of in these “heightened statesâ€.
It’s clear that stuff happens in our body that makes us able to perceive time and events in a new way – a heightened state where we see more and react more quickly. Most important is that our senses don’t appear to make stuff up in these states, but rather that they are simply more tuned-up.
Seems to me pretty likely that there would be quite a bit that could be learned in these heightened states – a whole new window into the world that we stumble through every day. Study like this seems to suggest that the world right in front of our eyes is, indeed, bigger than we think it is. There’s more in front of us than we see as we float through the world.